Hello Saferide - Long Lost Pen Pal

Hello, do you remember me?
I am your long lost pen pal.
It must have been ten years ago we last wrote.
I don't really know what happened,
I guess life came in the way.
Let me know if you're still alive--
let me know if you ever used that knife or not.

Hello, yes, I remember you;
I've got a husband and two children now.
I work as an accountant and make fairly good money.
I still have your letters,
you used a pink pen to write them.
And you would comfort me,
when my tears would stain the ink,
and I would send you mix tapes with Kate Bush on.

I have to admit I sometimes lied in those letters,
tried to make life better than it was.
I still wasn't kissed at sixteen.
And I still need a friend.

There was this letter--
I never told you this back then--
but it would be fair to say it saved my life.
I sat in the window,
the only one left out from a party again.
Pretty sure I didn't have a single friend,
then I checked the mailbox.

Dear long lost pen pal,
I was lying the whole time.
I'm really a 46-years-old man named Luke.
I have three children,
and a wife, she doesn't care.
And I hope you don't resent me,
and I hope that you don't hate me,
for trying to find my way back to what it's like to be young.

I have to admit I sometimes lied in those letters,
tried to make life better than it was.
I still wasn't kissed at sixteen,
and I still need a friend.